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Thinking about stuff. Randomly. And I just got the feeling today that I'm maybe trading six of one for half a dozen of the other... Dunno if it's one of that depressing Sunday-feelings I always have, one of this pseudo-déjà vu sensations that I hate so much, or what else.
So, I've no idea about what to do and how to react, once again...
At least, it's a hotter half.

Labels: déjà vu, feelings, Sunday, thoughts

Written by Shirley Ann at 9:57 PM | Permalink | | links to this post

I'm pissed off, unconformed, feeling so fucking miserable, angry, drowning in tears, revolted, and o lot more of mixed feelings right now. Why does it have to be the hard way? Why the hell? I can't even fucking think or write properly...
My dear friend, hope you watch over me, from wherever your are, 'cos it's getting more and more difficult to live here... Rest in peace.

And in times like these I realize how alone I feel and how alone I really am. I could use a hug right now, from someone who cares. And what I have is nothing.

Labels: death, friend, loneliness, Sadness

Written by Shirley Ann at 6:36 PM | Permalink | | links to this post

"Final celebration of bad hallucination.
Flip a coin and see which way I fall.
The Charlatan is singing.
We love to watch him killing,
And suffer through a never-ending day..
Suffer through a never-ending day.
I can feel I've lost control.
I let my guard down, I let the truth out."

A toast for a never-ending year. And a never-ending nightmare...

Labels: control, never-ending

Written by Shirley Ann at 11:08 PM | Permalink | | links to this post